Peace Corps Update, Part V

Part I
Parts II, III and IV

November 1

Dear (Recruiter 3),

I hope this finds you well. I don't expect you to receive this for a few days-- I know what that storm has done to my own hometown and county, and I understand Lower Manhattan is a mess and without power, too.

I am writing to you to withdraw my application. I've given it a lot of thought, and this just no longer strikes me as the right way to go about international service, in the context of my life. I want to thank you for being extremely helpful these past few months, always getting back to me, even when you didn't know the answer. You have been kind, honest, and patient with me, and I really do appreciate it.

Unfortunately, none of the reasons for my withdrawal have anything to do with you, but I don't know who else to share them with, as I have not had a productive relationship with your colleagues. That in and of itself it one of the reasons-- if the communication is so poor here in the United States, I have great concerns about being in the developing world with this organization. I understand through many RPCV friends that the experience is amazing if one can overlook the many flaws of Peace Corps, but I'm just not feeling entirely comfortable getting to that point.

In addition to lacking communication, some of it has just been incorrect. When my application was first withdrawn in February, I was told it was because of my lack of teaching experience and my lack of environmental studies, but by then I already had three years of teaching experience at the college level, and my BA and MS are both in environmental topics. Both degrees say Geography, but if the transcripts that I was required to send had been read, countless earth science, environment and development, climatology and human-environment interactions courses would have been noted. I was informed that these things rendered me ineligible for any environment-related positions, but then was nominated for exactly that several months later.

More recently, it was frustrating to receive no contact following the nomination for two months (save your emails letting me know that you didn't know any more than I did, and I thank you for those), until I heard from the Medical Services. They requested more information about a neurological disorder that I had already explained in the paperwork as being quelled; this is fine, I understand that it's something that most people are not familiar with. However, the paperwork I was sent was all related to Immunology and Rheumatology, which is just incorrect. The medical system is convoluted, and it was difficult to figure out which piece(s) of identification to include in my correspondence. I can generally overlook honest mistakes, but it has just felt like time and time again, my personal situation and information wasn't being considered particularly closely. Hopefully I am the only person repeatedly falling through the cracks like this.

At this point, the March departure is getting close. I have to pay my specialist, without insurance, to fill out the paper work regarding my neurological disorder; I know I'll have other general physical and dental exams to complete soon too. I've had to start considering my future too, which most immediately included making the decision whether to agree to teach another semester or not. I can't hold out hope forever and just not make arrangements to continue working. This is fast becoming an expensive commitment, and I haven't even begun to prepare for departure, since I know nothing about it. I'm not even guaranteed a final acceptance and placement.

The past year since I first applied to Peace Corps has been quite an adventure. At first, it was exciting, with a successful interview and a recruiter who was answering my initial questions swiftly and kindly. However, this quickly turned to a very negative experience. I don't expect Peace Corps workers to be my personal counselor, but a little compassion would have been welcomed-- weren't they in my shoes once? I was ignored for several weeks following the initial withdrawal, and then of course the incident occurred when I received a late evening phone message on a Friday, when he would not be able to respond to me for over a week.

This breaks my heart. I wanted so badly to represent my country and to bring my education and desire to serve to the developing world. I'm hopeful that I'll find another way to accomplish this that is less agonizing. I was told many times by friends in Peace Corps that if I could just get beyond the disorganization and bureaucratic nonsense, it was a worthwhile experience. I'm sure it is, but the organization doesn't seem too intent on getting me there, and I don't have the where with all to do it myself at this point in my life. I hope the overhaul of the system eventually lends itself to placing strong candidates in places that need them and providing an incredible experience to all involved. Unfortunately, that was not my experience.

Thank you again, (Recruiter 3), for all of your hard work for me. I really appreciate that you managed to nominate me and encourage me through this. Please let me know if there is anything else I need to do. Wishing you well.
Peace,
Colleen





Kind of insulting: after two months of virtual silence, I received an IMMEDIATE response from both Recruiter number 3 and the placement desk in Washington, D.C. that was allegedly handling my application, confirming my withdrawal.